I just would like to let you all know my blogs are like
songs or poetry they are inspired. This blog was inspired by the Coronavirus
(COVID-19). What it has been causing as for as shelter in place, us having to
be quarantined, and the loss of lives.
I lost one of my high school teammates and it is believed
that he died from the Coronavirus because he had similar symptoms. There are
other people that I did not personally know but I learned they died from the
Coronavirus, one of them happen to be the Student Minister of New York City,
Student Minister Abdul Hafeez Muhammad. He was truly loved and admired by the
believers in his mosque and the community.
I was falling into depression and I was getting stressed
out. After learning about these deaths and seeing more people dying on my
timeline on Facebook my depression grew even stronger. I could not sleep,
and I cried more in my life than I recall. I began thinking about my daughters
and other members of my family wondering would I see them again?
I began to think about all the things I wanted to do, the
things I desired, and the things I do not have. I began to think about me being
single and how I did not want to die alone. I live in Dallas, Texas and most of
my family is in California and my daughters all live in different states from
me.
I tried to share how I was feeling to a few people but it
seemed before I could open and say how I was thinking and feeling. They began
sharing their thoughts and feelings. If I did get someone to listen, I felt my
words were taken out of context. So, I began to shelter myself from talking to
people.
I saw, I was not sleeping and when I did finally sleep. I
was sleeping 10 to 12 hours. I googled signs of depression – little interest of
pleasure in doing things, feeling down, depressed, or hopeless, trouble falling
or staying asleep, or sleeping too much, feeling tired or having little energy,
poor appetite, overeating, or considerable weight changes, feeling bad about
yourself – that you are a failure or have a lot of guilt, difficulty
concentrating on a thing or making a decision, moving or speaking slowly, so that
other people have noticed, or being so restless that you’ve been moving around
a lot, thoughts that you be better off dead, or of hurting yourself in some way
(Trintellix vortioxetine n. d.).
I thought about contacting my old therapist. But something
put it on my heart to turn to the source. I know some people that are reading
this blog may not believe in God, we are all entitled to our own opinions and I
once was atheist but like Saul who later became Paul, I saw the light. This
blog is not about religion, I am just sharing what I was experiencing in hopes
to help others.
So, I turned to God, I began praying and fasting. I decided
God is the only and the best person I could talk to during this time. I deactivated
my Facebook page, I decided not to read articles about this epidemic, and I decided when I do talk to people. I would strive to keep our conversation
positive. And if the person is negative, I would let the person know, and I
will tell the person to let us strive to keep our conversation uplifting and
encouraging or not talk at all.
This crisis showed me the only person I can really call on
and depend on is God and Me.
I hope you all find some good out of this blog and I
encourage you all if you need assistance. Sit your pride to the side and call
a therapist if needed.
Reference
Trintellix vortioxetine (n. d.). Discussing your symptoms.
Check. Retrieved from https://www.us.trintellix.com
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