It has been a few months, since, I last wrote a blog. I was honestly debating about writing any more blogs. The reason being…. We are living in a time, when, people do not like to read. They rather watch a YouTube video, watch a Podcast, and listen to an Audiobook. But, I was inspired to write this blog for my granddaughter who passed away yesterday morning. March 10th, 2022. It will be hard for me to forget this day because it is two months before my Celebration of Life, May 10th. For the last two days, I cannot help but shed tears. If you wanted me to cry you a river for the last two days, I have been doing that. It was truly painful to hear my oldest daughter cry, trying to tell me, her first daughter and baby died. Nina was only 16 months old. Yesterday, I prayed to Allah (God) asking Him, why He did not take me instead. Even though I do not want to die but I rather it had been me instead of my granddaughter. I lived to be nearly 46, I lived a decent amount of years. So, I would rather it had been me…. No insects or animals want to lose their lives. If they sense danger, they would flee. So, again, I do not want to die but I would rather it been me instead my granddaughter Nina. Gone too soon!!
I close with some of the lyrics from an R. Kelly song:
“Trade in my life
Oh for you, oh yes, oh yes
Trade in my life for you
I mean it from the bottom of my heart
Tell me are you with me, are you willing to trade it
And I don't even have to think about it twice
Hey, I'll trade it
Somebody help me say I'll trade it
Until you return to me
I'm gonna stay on my hands and knees
And when I see you I'm gonna stand up
And reach my hands out to you, and trade it.” – R. Kelly from the song: (Trade in My Life).
